WILSON, Mikayla Hope

[MIKAYLA HOPE WILSON]

oh yeah, i'll tell you something, i think you'll understand

when i say that something ; i wanna hold your hand

full name: mikayla hope wilson
nickname: mikayla, or mikki, sometimes mikki mouse
age: sixteen
gender: female
sexuality: straightt.
birthday: march ninth, nineteen ninety four
grade: highschool : junior
face claim: jessie lush

and when i touch you i feel happy, inside
it's such a feeling that my love, i can't hide

personality:

[secretive] Keeping secrets is something that Mikayla grew to love. She loves hearing secrets from other people because it makes her feel special for some reason. She likes knowing that people can trust her, and that's part of the reason why she loved to keep them. Mikayla has told people secrets before which she didn't want told to anyone else, which they were anyways, and it hurt really bad. So when someone tells her something, she knows how to keep it to herself. She doesn't want anyone else to feel like she did, and she just loved the fact that she was able to keep it a secret. She also keeps secrets of her own to herself. There are a lot of secrets that she has kept to only herself, and hasn't spilled a word to anyone. Stuff that she tells to her journal, and that was it. Not a word to anyone, not even her brothers who she tells everything to. She also doesn't give a way clues. One time her brother was throwing a surprise party for their parents on their anniversary. It was only her and him who had known because they didn't trust anyone else to keep it a secret because they would have hinted around to the party to their parents, or let someone else find out about it and have them spill it to their parents. When she knew this, she knew how to act completely normal and not say anything to anyone, not even a hint. She could act like nothing was going on, and nobody would suspect anything.

[innocent] Everyone has had those "sex, drugs and rock and roll" experience right? Well that's what all adults think about teenagers. They always expect Mikayla to have tried something in the past, when in reality, the only drugs she had ever had was pain killers or when she was in treatment and she had an IV with fluids and other stuff to help her get back to a normal weight. Trust me, she has had her opportunities to do all of that, but she's always been too afraid to even try it. She figured she'd try it someday, but for now she was only sixteen. She had her whole life ahead of her for that kind of stuff. Right now she just wanted to be a kid and she had seen what drugs and alcohol can do to a teenager, and she didn't want to be one of them. The whole sex thing? She wasn't so afraid of that. In fact, she didn't really mind that. If she wanted to have sex, then she would do it. Sure she would probably be nervous, but she'd do it if she really felt the timing was right. Though she hadn't even had her first kiss yet. Yes, she wants to kiss a boy.. but she wanted it to be with the right person, and she would wait until that person came along. Until then, she was perfectly happy never been kissed. Though of course, nobody knows she's this innocent. If people came right out and asked her, she'd probably tell the truth about her never touching anything bad, and never kissing a guy before. But if she just heard it around of how big of a 'whore' she was or how she was an alcoholic, she didn't say a word. Mikayla didn't want to have to prove herself to anyone. If they wanted to know something, they'd ask her, and she'd tell the truth.

[scared] When it all comes down to it, Mikayla is a huge scardey cat. She's terrified of being hurt. That's the number one thing that she's afraid of. That's why she doesn't get close with many people at all, and when she does get close with someone, its usually to a guy and only in the brother/sister type relationship. She's only felt hurt a few times before, but that was back when she was bullied constantly every day, and that was bad. She never wanted to feel that way again, which is why she doesn't get very close to people unless she can trust them.. Which usually she trusts too easily and she knows in the end she's just going to end up hurt anyways. Mikayla is also terrified of the dark. It's the one thing she can not stand. Yes, she's sixteen, almost seventeen years old and she still sleeps with a nightlight. It's just something about it that makes her panic, so she usually tries to avoid the dark at all costs. Now, thunderstorms? That's a whole other story! When Mikayla was ten, her sister thought it would be funny to lock Mikayla out of the house one day, and then it started to storm while she was out there. Her sister didn't let her in until she was in tears and had ran to the neighbors house. Now every time it storms, she will cling to whoever is next to her and won't let go until that storm is over. If the storm happens to be at night, she'll either crawl into bed with one of her brothers, or make one of her friends come sleep with her until the next day when its over.

yeah, you got that something i think you'll understand
when i say that something

history: When Mikayla was born to Mary and Dan Wilson, she wasn't the first. Nor the second, or the third and so on. She was the tenth child that Mary had given birth to. It was also the second girl that was born. Mikayla was supposed to have had a twin sister, but they were both born premature, and only Mikayla had made it. And yes, the girl blamed herself for her death for many years even though she didn't fully understand why her sister had died and she hadn't. But yet, the only people that knew about her twin sister, was her family. The parents couldn't tell one child and not the rest. Though they didn't tell the family about Mikayla's twin until Mikayla was five years old. They finally had decided it was too hard to keep a secret anymore, and told everyone about it.. Nobody spoke of it outside that house and with nobody else.

Mikayla grew up pretty normal besides the fact she had nine brothers and sisters. Well, eight brothers and one sister. She got along with most of them too. Besides her sister of course. Her sister was four years older then her, and always loved to pick on her. Then besides two of the boys around her age, she got along great with her older brothers. They were always there to help her, and they always made sure she would stay out of trouble. When she did get in trouble, they would easily get her out of it, or they would just take the blame. This is why she loved them more then anything else; they were the reasons she didn't stay bored, and the reason she hadn't been grounded as a little kid. Though that all stopped once Mikayla turned fifteen.

When Mikayla was fifteen, she started getting into trouble at school. Mostly by speaking out of turn in class, or talking too much and back sassing the teacher. She'd skip class, and act completely badass. But the truth was, that wasn't her at all, and her brothers knew that better then anyone else. Once one of her teachers called her house, she knew she needed to stop. And once kids at school started finding out the truth about her (how she wasn't as badass as they thought) she started to get picked on and bullied. One kid called her fat, and she took it seriously and stopped eating. She was diagnosed with anorexia at the age of fifteen, and ended up in treatment for a year. Now she is just getting out of treatment and is starting to eat more, little bits at a time. Nobody really knows this, but if you saw her, you would probably tell she had an eating disorder.

i wanna hold your hand

name/ alias: mariah or mya
age: almost sixteen
experience: about two years
how you found us: proboard support
pass code: butterfly kisses

ROLE-PLAY EXAMPLE:

Being in a house with eleven other people every day really could stress a girl out. Especially one that was dealing with school work and being bullied. Mikayla was one of those girls who, even though she tried to ignore it, got all worked up about the littlest things. She cared what people thought about her, and when someone didn't like her, she tried everything to get them to like her. She didn't like to have enemies, but if she really didn't like someone, they would know. But the thing that bugged her the most, was why people didn't like her. Yeah she's had a few problems lately, and she isn't nearly as amazing as her siblings.. But why do people pick on her? Sure, she's short and she can get really hyper, but is that really any reason to not like someone? She could see how people got annoyed with her, but she knew how to be a good friend too. It was mostly the girls who hadn't liked her, for some reason Mikayla got along better with guys and she really just kind of gave up on trying to make more friends. She didn't have many as it was just because of the fact that she had been in treatment for the past year for her anorexia. It was pretty obvious that was why she was gone, but she didn't tell anyone about it, and she really didn't plan on talking about it with anyone.

That's why as soon as her mom and her eldest brother started to fight, the sixteen year old girl just grabbed her backpack and left. It wasn't like she was going to see anyone special, so she just slipped into a pair of sweatpants and put on a t-shirt over her bikini before she headed towards the beach, backpack in hand. She decided to leave her phone at home, so that way nobody could reach her and she didn't have to worry about anyone finding her. All she had was her ipod, a towel and her drawing pad and a few pencils. That was all she needed in order to relax at the beach. No matter how many people were there, or how hot/cold it was, or how loud it was. She could just put her headphones in and pull out her drawing pad to draw. Which is exactly what she had planned to do. Except when she arrived, she was surprised to see that there weren't many people there at all. She glanced around and only saw a couple walking around holding hands, and two or three families throughout the whole place. Mikayla smiled to herself and then sprinted over to a spot in the sand, a good ways away from the water, and then plopped down in the sand.

Mikayla of course, took of her flip flops and then pulled out her drawing pad and ipod. She put her headphones in and put the ipod on shuffle before she set the ipod down next to her and grabbed her drawing pad and then started to draw anything that came to her mind instantly. Which just happened to be a giant heart with a shadow. She started to write what she loved in life, and the things that mattered to her in small letters inside of the heart. Eventually, the whole heart would be filled up, and the drawing was something she could go back to when she felt like giving up on the world and running away or harming herself. Trust me, she's had these thoughts before. But shes always had someone or something keep her from doing this, and she knew that one day there wouldn't be anything to stop her and she'd end up just doing it. But today she was in one of those moods where she didn't care about anything. She didn't care who saw her, what she was wearing, or what anyone said about her. Today, she was just going to sit on the beach and relax, hoping that nobody interrupted her deep thinking and her concentration on the drawing in front of her.